Immortal Marilyn

Marilyn – 50 years from the death of the most iconic and legendary woman of our times

50 years has passed by from the death of Marilyn.

Without a doubt she’s the most famous female movie star and most iconic woman of all times – and the most wonderful thing is, she still continues to be. Maybe she’s still around after 500 or 1000 years – who knows!

She’s immortal – and as Marilyn herself said “I don’t want to make money, I just want to be wonderful”- I think she would be more than happy with this.


Who won the battle; Marilyn or Elizabeth?

In her last years, one of the biggest issues Marilyn had with her work and public side, was the constant rivalry with another superstar of her time, Elizabeth Taylor.

The 20 something young man who started photographing her during the filming of her last, unfinished, movie “Something’s Got To Give” in 1961, and became friends with her, Lawrence Schiller (A photographer and an Oscar winner nowadays), said in a recent interview that this rivalry was always there in the background. He also said that regardless that it was kind of an “invisible” rivalry, it ate up sensitive Marilyn from inside and gave her constant stress.

She felt she was not appreciated like Elizabeth Taylor was (for comparison, Elizabeth was paid 1 million from her role in Cleopatra, while at the same time when Marilyn was filming Something’s Got To Give, she only was going to be paid $100 000 – although she made more money to the film studios than Elizabeth Taylor and was at the end bigger star to the audience too).

Lawrence Schiller took many nowadays very famous shots of Marilyn in 1961 and 1962, including famous cover shots, and was by the way, also amongst the last people to see Marilyn before her death; just about 12 hrs before – in fact it was in the morning of 4th of August. He said that Marilyn was not in her greatest mood then, she seemed to be little down (like she was many times in the morning as she was not a morning person), but that there wasn’t anything strange in the situation or anything alarming to him.

Well – all I can say – and I think we all can agree with this – is that Marilyn has become immortal and she is also forever young, sensual and beautiful.

So in this sense, she won the battle with Elizabeth, who at the end was old and sick and had many personal issues that affected on her looks heavily too. I don’t want to say this to dismiss Elizabeth Taylor in anyway, as she was wonderful, and a legendary superstar too  – but this is just a fact.  Marilyn is immortal in a very different way than she ever will be. I think Marilyn is happy about the situation in her heavenly home – but I hope the women have solved their issues finally there.  : )


Norma Jeane’s story and her ambitious goal to make it really big;

What made Marilyn the sensual beauty that she was?

Marilyn’s story began on 1st of June, 1926, as Norma Jeane Baker Mortenson.

She had a rocky childhood and lots of things were sad and unhappy – such as the relationship with her almost non-existing very troubled mother, her non-existing dad (no one knows who was her dad), her several foster homes, orphanages, severe poverty (no money for even clothing or proper food), the sad events that may have or may have not happened to her as a child (Marilyn told several horrible stories regarding what had happened to her as a child including sexual abuse, but it’s not sure these events happened in reality)…

Her childhood years weren’t easy – and it can be seen thru the honest and simple comments Marilyn has said and written down in her notebooks about her childhood such as;

“No one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl. All little girls should be told they’re pretty, even if they aren’t”,  and,  “I think I was a mistake. My mother didn’t want me. I was most likely just on her way and I became a taint to her” amongst others.

BUT somewhere over the years the young Norma Jeane grew off from her baby shoes, first became a sensitive, backward, very shy child, AND, finally started magically blooming slowly but as certainly as sun rises, in her early teenage years.

By the age of 12 and 13, actually in the summer she turned 13,  the shy, backward girl who was called also mousy by her class mates, just somehow transferred totally – she made a total U-turn just like that in couple of months.

In one summer, the summer she was 13 – before the school started again, she changed completely.

She realized that there was something in her looks behind the mousy first appearance. She started to become a woman too and was much more developed than her aged girls usually were. She also suddenly started looking much older than her 13 years of age, many thought she was 16 or 18. She started taking care of her looks to the smallest detail, she started doing careful and bold make up, and constantly brush her long, thick brown locks, and she realized how much power she had on men just by using simple but very clever ways of sexy dressing. The daring clothing choices and very carefully created new beautiful looks changed the situation totally. Then she also developed that sensual, sexual energy and aura that surrounded her for the rest of her life.

Suddenly everyone noticed her in everywhere – and when the school started she became the most popular girl of the whole school – amongst boys.

A whole new world of amazing opportunities opened up to her just like that and she was more than excited about this. Girls on the other hand didn’t like her – but for different reasons now; she wasn’t mousy anymore, she had somehow made a full U-turn and become much more beautiful than any of them, in one summer. They also disapproved her tight and revealing clothing and bright red lips. In today’s rough school world, she would have been called probably a slut, but at those times, those words probably weren’t used so often in school world, luckily (girls can be so cruel when they envy some other girl – I don’t think any man can realize this – it don’t exist in men’s world).

Her new gorgeous, sexy looks, sensual walking style, the amazing inner sexual shine, and, her daring choices of clothing and make up gave her a new nick name “mmm – girl” Cause that’s how all the boys reacted when she passed by… AND she absolutely LOVED it – she has said many times later how much she loved all the attention she suddenly got from everywhere – and that it was addicting as it was so wonderful.

At the same also her guardian Grace Goddard and Grace’s aunt Ana – started “brainwashing” Norma Jeane strongly on how she’d become the new Jean Harlow and world’s biggest and most beautiful movie star.

This was a mission Grace had for the young girl from the moment she started blooming – and suddenly Norma Jeane realized that it was actually a fantastic idea. She realized she wanted to become a super star and very famous and was going to do all it takes to achieve it.

In the mean time she got married to Jim Dougherty at the age of 16 but that marriage was doomed before it started because by that time Norma Jeane’s only mission in life was to become a superstar.

Norma Jeane and Grace both started passionately heading to the right direction so that Norma Jeane would make this all come true, together with the help of Grace and Ana. Her long hair became golden blond, her wardrobe started changing, her image became more sensual and sexy, and finally she was noticed by photographers too, and her modeling career started at the age of 18. By this time Norma Jeane had already left her first husband.

The next change was that, because of her beauty, sexuality, radiating eyes and gorgeous smile, this unknown cover girl of several magazines was noticed also by many film studios.

She started meeting with movie company agents and bosses to get acting roles. During the process her name was changed to Marilyn Monroe. It sounded like a name of a superstar, unlike Norma Jeane – that’s what the film people said. The process also included some beauty treatments, teeth treatments and the long curly hair getting even blonder. And there was the start for the Marilyn we know and from there her amazing success story and fame began. The iconic Marilyn Looks was created then; the shiny platinum blonde hair, the gorgeous smile, the sensual eyes, the luscious red lips, the soft voice – and the sensitiveness and sensuality were added by Marilyn herself.

As you can see – Marilyn too had a very determined and ambitious plan to make it big since the age of 13, just like most of the today’s biggest stars have had too; to become new Jean Harlow and a famous movie star.

She got great help from her aunt (Grace) who was kinda her biggest “mentor” in this ambitious mission – but at the end it was Norma Jeane’s plan and determination that made her the immortal, legendary Marilyn Monroe.

The early years for Norma Jeane – and young Marilyn were full of hard work and rough times. With no money for even eating – she went to dinners with wealthy men so she could survive, and being an intelligent beauty, she started dating older men who were very powerful in Hollywood at those times. She created strong networks of supporters and admirers from these men.  And in addition she was working day in and out with her acting roles and lessons to make her goal of becoming a movie star come true.

The start wasn’t easy and the superstardom didn’t just drop from the sky – not anything like that.

Her first role ever was a tiny role in Dangerous Years in 1947 – and the following roles were very similar tiny roles. Nothing more seemed to be in sight.  It wasn’t easy and in the first years it seemed that nothing really worked in order that she’d make it big.

BUT she kept on going and was an intelligent, beautiful young woman with a steel-tough mission to become a superstar and with a dare to do all it takes to make it come true.

She sure had relationships with some powerful men who could help her – but then again sometimes a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do to make her ambitious goals come true – who’s to judge it.

In 1948 she finally got her first leading role in a small budget musical Ladies Of The Chorus, in 1949 she got a good role in Love Happy and in 1950 in The Asphalt Jungle and All About Eve, amongst other movies she made. These were one of those movies that started creating the superstar Marilyn slowly but steadily. The first two real jackpots came with Don’t Bother To Knock, and, Monkey Business, in 1952. These two movies were the ones that made Marilyn a star – which was slowly but steadily changing into a superstar status.  Actually Don’t Bother To Knock is an excellent thriller of a seriously disturbed woman disappointed in love, who becomes a deadly babysitter.

So there you go – this woman was far away from a stupid blonde. In fact she was an intelligent, determined, ambitious woman who was ready to work her ass off to make her huge goal of superstardom to come true!

And there’s absolutely nothing wrong in using your beauty as one of the means – when you are beautiful you should sure benefit from it as intelligently as only beautiful women can……….!

With Marilyn – the only difference in the chase of superstardom was her real motive behind it. It wasn’t money and riches and not so much the fame itself either – like it is today. BUT it was most of all the desire to be wanted, and to be just “Wonderful” in front of everybody else as she said it.


Marilyn’s greatest movies  –  My opinion


Marilyn was known of her “innocent, naughty giggling blond” roles – BUT –  in addition to those, she also had some excellent,  serious drama and thriller roles.

In both of these types, she nevertheless played at least some kind of a man eater, either innocent one or deceptive one…

Well – she was absolutely  stunning – so she didn’t need to even do anything to be “a man eater”, it was enough that she just WAS…………….


The fact is that she was absolutely an ingenious actress in both of these role types.

Just look at her work for example in “Gentlemen Prefer Blondes” and in “Niagara” and you will see what I mean. She’s brilliant. She knows exactly how to use her voice, tones of voice, smile, soft laughing, giggling, and facial gestures and how to move – she’s like a magnet that you just gotta look at all the time. She shines literally from inside. There’s like this shining aura surrounding her in all her movies. I cannot even describe it – it’s beyond any description.


My personal all-time favorites are…

The lovely Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (1953) where Marilyn is more beautiful and lovelier than ever (she’s absolutely magnetic in this movie..!) , Niagara (1953) – a thriller of an intelligent, beautiful and very dangerous and deceptive woman, Marilyn plays this role of a stunningly beautiful but deadly woman excellently, River Of No Return (1954) – an exciting adventure in middle of stunning nature and Marilyn with lovely long blonde hair, boots and jeans (today’s jeans and boots – girls; you need to watch how it is done  – Marilyn shows you!), and, the hilarious Some Like It Hot (1959) – this is an eventful and super fun comedy full of action, gun shooting and snarky comments, and Marilyn is very sensual, snarky, innocent and fun.  Highly recommended…

I can warmly recommend these movies to everyone – they stand time excellently and are still very entertaining.

The Misfits would be one of my favorites too as it is basically a good drama movie with the best actors of the 1960’s – unless it was so clearly very sad, unless you could tell how unhappy Marilyn was then from just watching her in the movie, and unless Arthur Miller hadn’t been such an unbelievable jerk when writing those types of comments and events in that script to his wife that he knew was a sensitive, fragile woman.

I have to say that my respect for Arthur Miller as a person was pretty much washed away when I got to know the sad story and events behind that movie script, and the whole movie.

Basically he wrote a role to Marilyn that mainly put her down in all the possible ways as herself, and included exchange of words and events from her personal, intimate real life. The worst thing was that this role was his GIFT to Marilyn – and Marilyn had expected it with joy and excitement so that she and her husband could start working together. It’s no wonder Marilyn was painfully unhappy, depressed and messed up at the time of filming it.

If you want to see the most magnetically beautiful Marilyn, make sure to watch Gentlemen Prefer Blondes (be ready to laugh – it’s a hilarious comedy and Marilyn has some totally hilarious exchange of words there – that shows how talented comedienne she was), and, Niagara  with the deadly and dangerously cunning Marilyn – this movie can compete with any similar movies of today!

Compare these two, and also compare it with River Of No Return, and see how different for example her tone of voice alone is – in Gentlemen Prefer Blondes it is soft, sensual and child-like full of astonishment and amazement, and , in Niagara (and River Of No Return), it is strong, deeper tone and meaningful, far away from child-like giggling. Another example of a great talent.


Diamonds Are A Girl’s Best Friend, and other immortal songs by Marilyn

–  … And Madonna VS Marilyn …  –

Marilyn was very talented singer too – she had a lovely, soft, sensual singing voice that she could change from very sexy and sensual to strong and dramatic.

Actually she’s one of the top singing artists of the old times and produces still lots of money with her songs.

Some of her most memorable and lovely songs are obviously the amazing Diamonds Are A Girl’s Best Friend, and also several others such as Kiss, Down Boy, Do It Again, One Silver Dollar, My Heart Belongs to Daddy, I Wanna Be Loved By You, I’m Gonna File My Claim,  After You Get What You Want and River Of No Return.

Just listen to some of her songs and you will fall in love with her sensual voice!

Oh – and Diamonds Are A Girl’s Best Friend – movie has one of the best “music videos”  of all times!

Madonna copied it to her Material Girl almost completely.

And Madonna’s version is PERFECT (I LOVE it) – an honour to Marilyn’s, I’m sure Marilyn would love it.

Marilyn in Diamonds Are A Girl’s Best Friend

Both of the “versions” are excellent : ) I absolutely love them. Watch and compare them please – and I can GUARANTEE you will fall in love with both of them!

But really, Marilyn filmed Gentlemen Prefer Blondes in the early 1950’s and this song was from the movie – and the performance is just PERFECT – it’s as great as any great music videos today.


Forever Uniquely  Beautiful

Marilyn was and is just unique – I don’t think anyone can ever be anything that can be even close to her for what comes to her amazing combination of physical beauty, sensuality and sexuality and this unbelievable inner shine of vulnerability and sensuality, and the shining aura surrounding her.

What she said about fame and money – “I don’t want to make money, I just want to be wonderful” – is what made her immortal and forever beautiful.

A fact is that regardless of being a superstar and very intelligent woman – and regardless of the ambitious goal of becoming a superstar in her youth and the fact how she loved the attention she got – she was also very uncertain about herself.

This was one of the reasons she was always late – she believed she wasn’t good enough as she was – so she kept improving her looks endlessly in front of mirror and practicing her acting – without ever getting the certainty that she was an excellent and bright comedienne and serious actress. She knew she was very beautiful and sexy, but then again, she sometimes also didn’t know it at all and was very uncertain deep down regarding her looks and skills. This is a combination that only some women can understand.

It’s the inner vulnerability and the naturally (not artificially or aggressively) very sensual and sexual woman inside, that created the amazing shining aura around Marilyn – and made her the one-of-kind creature that she is.

She was amazingly beautiful, she had platinum hair that just added more shine, she was glamorous and every bit of the superstar that she was, she had lots of sexual energy and glamorous, stylish, sexy clothing style that was perfect for her body and voluptuous figure – but in addition to all this – she also had A SOUL.

Inside the Marilyn we know, there was a real soul and a real woman who was vulnerable, uncertain and fragile and had her own demons to fight with, but who was also very sharp, creative, artistic and self-educated, deeply thoughtful, caring, loving and warm.

You can actually see how warm and deeply thoughtful person she was just by looking at her in any images – look at her eyes and the “energy” around her and you will instantly notice it.  How many of today’s superstars can be described with this type of description? I don’t think that anyone actually. It’s a different world today.


Words of Wisdom – by Marilyn

Marilyn was intellectual and deeply thoughtful – she loved reading poetry and she read also a lot of books written by the great philosophers – especially  Russian philosophers. She also read the famous and massive Odysseus by James Joyce – completely. She used to write down a lot of her thoughts and small poems – which have been recently published in a book. That book was amazing –  I read it and enjoyed every bit. It is just Marilyn speaking there with her own words. There are poems, thoughts, recipes, notes, ideas, plans, worries written down and much more… It is very intimate.

Have a look at some of these Words of Wisdom by Marilyn – and learn from them – they’re full of honest truth and simple and ingenious facts of life!

>> “I restore myself when I’m alone.”  (So very true!)

>> “I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love.”

>> “Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”  (Perfect way of saying it – that’s the truth for any persons who want to be something special in their lifetime!)

>> “I don’t mind being burdened with being glamorous and sexual.” (This is for all sexy mamas out there!)

>> “Girls will be your friends – they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything – they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them.”  (You can’t say it better than this – in fact this made me to contact my real friends when I read it – do the same with your real friends!)

>> ‘She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important, you know’.  (I think she said this about one of her movie characters; maybe Cherie..? Sometimes it’s better to act like it if you’re really not like it – soon you’ll feel better when doing it like this)

>> ‘A girl knows her limits, but a wise girl knows she has none’.  (Well said – the truth behind success creation!)

>> ‘When you’re young and healthy you can plan on committing a suicide on Monday, and by Wednesday you’re laughing again.’  (Voilà!)

>> ‘It’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.’  (Yes it is – once again!)

>> ‘If I’d observed all the rules I’d never have gotten anywhere. So when it comes down to it I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do then I’m already a better person than them. After all well-behaved women rarely make history.”‘  (Another wisdom from Marilyn regarding success creation and so true – today’s counterpart could be “Good girls go to heaven. Naughty girls go anywhere”!  The word “Naughty” means basically just a really bold, unique girl. I had a tshirt with this text when I was 18 or something : ) )

>> ‘Men who think that a woman’s past love affairs lessen her love for them are usually stupid and weak. A woman can bring a new love to each man she loves, providing there are not too many’.

>> ‘Your clothes should be tight enough to show you’re a woman but loose enough to show you’re a lady’. (Very good advice for dressing up)

>> ‘The trouble with censors is that they worry if a girl has cleavage. They ought to worry if she hasn’t any.’ (That’s right ladies – boobs are in fashion! Pls don’t slim yourself down too much, those 0 figures aren’t pretty at all, they’re ugly)

>> ‘Some people have been unkind. If I say I want to grow as an actress, they look at my figure. If I say I want to develop, to learn my craft, they laugh. Somehow they don’t expect me to be serious about my work.’  (Sometimes any career woman will feel like this – just get over it)

>> ‘I have feelings too. I am still human. All I want is to be loved, for myself and for my talent. ‘  (This is the real Marilyn speaking)

>> ‘A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left.’  (Good advice for love and life)

>> ‘I love to do the things the censors won’t pass.’  (Words of wisdom for success creation and fun!)

>> ‘I don’t know who invented high heels, but all women owe him a lot!’  (Touché!)

>> ‘If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything.’  (Men, this is perfect advice for you!)

>> ‘We are all of us stars, and we deserve to twinkle.’  (Yes we do, but unfortunately just a couple of percentage of the people in our planet knows this – the rest of them forget about the twinkling and their dreams – so we who know this – let’s use our right to twinkle in every way possible!)

>> ‘It’s better for the whole world to know you, even as a sex star, than never to be known at all.’  (Words of wisdom for any aspiring sexy stars!)

>> ‘Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world.’

>> ‘I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.’  (Here it is – my man better know this!)

>> ‘Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world.’

>> ‘Sex is part of nature. I go along with nature.’  ( So very true – why would anyone want to be un-sexual!)

>> ‘I read poetry to save time.’  (Marilyn’s snarky comments.. : )  )

>> ‘I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.’  (This is a true wisdom of life and one that anyone should memorize into their hearts and minds.)


Why she was so sad at times?

The misunderstood, intelligent, multi-talented, skilled woman we know as Marilyn Monroe

Marilyn was on the other hand an intelligent, beautiful woman who knew very well she was beautiful and sexy, and knew how to use her beauty to get her way, and she loved and yearned for the attention – but  on the other hand she also was very uncertain about herself and her skills, fragile and vulnerable, and she was a very misunderstood person – and wanted more than anything to be taken seriously as a person, human being and as an artist, actor and business woman. But she never was.

It seems to me that very few people took her seriously in her lifetime – most of the world, and, the people and entertainment industry around her just thought she was a beautiful, dumb blonde who had nothing really serious to say about things. And the ones that took her the least seriously included some of her husbands too like Arthur Miller.

On the other hand I believe Joe Dimaggio, her 2. husband took her more seriously and although their marriage had lots of troubles, jealousy and maybe even physical violence (that’s not sure though), I believe he was the only one of her husbands that took her seriously. (He also never said one word about Marilyn before or after her death, unlike the two other men who spoke about her widely and freely)

Amongst those that took her the least seriously were also unfortunately all the film studios she worked for and many other professionals from entertainment and movie industries. Only her photographer friends that shot most of those famous photographs of her seemed to take her seriously, and her closest friends, including her make up artist.

Most of the world didn’t take her seriously at all. I believe this was one of the biggest  reasons for her personal problems, in addition to her personal demons from the sad childhood events and from her childhood relationships such as the one with her mom. These were the reasons that made her sad and feeling down so often.

She was also a person who felt really deeply about things – and probably thought about things very deeply.

Deepdown she was intelligent and deeply thoughtful person. She was a sensitive, caring, warm and creative artistic soul, and had a fragile, vulnerable self esteem. I believe that every bad word or doubt she heard about herself affected on her a lot, when more than anything she just wanted to be loved.

So surely it can make you sad and troubled when those personal issues aren’t solved, when no one really understands you and when you’re really beautiful and really talented, intelligent, skillful and deeply thoughtful person, but no one sees that, they only see your outer beauty and think there’s nothing that special beneath that, and thus no one takes you so seriously and believes that you have true skills and intelligence to DO things in life.

This is what I think made Marilyn at times very sad.

Most of the people didn’t understand her the way she should’ve been understood.

This, together with her childhood issues and other personal problems, caused her to start misusing prescription drugs and alcohol (champagne was her favorite drink and she used to start drinking many times from the morning already) – to make her cope better with the issues.

In the late  1950’s and the early 1960’s these issues just got bigger, so her drug and alcohol issues got bigger too.

She was misunderstood and mistakenly believed by many to be just very beautiful “dumb blonde”. Yes she was very beautiful – BUT she was also very intelligent, intellectual woman –  AND –  a clever business woman for one.

She established her own production company Marilyn Monroe Productions to protect her rights as an actress.

She was like many starting entrepreneurs; she didn’t know much of business by the time of establishing the company, but she did all she could to learn business and to become a smart business owner.

She also took her acting very very seriously and studied for example in the famous Actor’s Studio in NYC amongst other students, keeping low profile and being without makeup.

Everyone said she was just like other students, but very shy about being on stage in front of the class.

The biggest thing in business and acting wise that Marilyn did was that she was tough and negotiated a good deal with her filming studio, one that would bring her more rights (to be able to freely decide on what movies to choose)and more profits – she wouldn’t budge on these things as she knew what she wanted and what she was worth and was going to get a deal that would be worthy of her.

In fact these negotiations that took place in the 1950’s because of Marilyn, were the grounds for all the similar deals that the filming studios in Hollywood made with their stars later, including today. Marilyn was the first major star to negotiate this type of deal, and soon this type of deal was the only one in use with stars.

The other thing that Marilyn was really good at – exceptionally good at – was posing in photographs.

Most of the famous photographers that photographed her have said that no one can compare with her when it comes to photo shots. She was beyond amazing – she literally started shining from inside the moment the shooting started and that you could actually physically see this change – and the images, as you know, are magnificent, one-of-kind images.

But not only was she naturally talented and exceptionally charismatic model – she also was very professional for what comes to the photographs that could be published. She chose each one of the published photographs carefully. She went thru them with magnifier each time and was very selective and picky. The professionals said she was very talented in choosing the best images, and in everything related to modeling, posing, and photographing, including lights and shadows and much more.

Lawrence Schiller (who shot the famous images of Marilyn in 1961 and 1962 and became her friend too) actually said that Marilyn was the one in charge when he started photographing her for the first times – and she taught him lots of professional stuff about photographing.

Once Marilyn asked from Lawrence that “Is this the only part of me that will ever do – my body?” This shows again her worry and endless fear of being not taking seriously as a person and human being and being only seen as a sex object.

Marilyn showed her sensitive and vulnerable side pretty easily in public too – so she was also an open-hearted person in addition to everything else. I think the world treated her little too roughly, and she was a sensitive, delicate, thoughtful, creative artistic soul who sometimes had too much to cope with because of all of this.


Mysteries and the death

The legend of Marilyn wouldn’t exist without mysteries – actually I believe the mysterious parts of herself and her life are very important parts of the immortality.

Everyone thought they would know who Marilyn was, and it seemed that the whole world knew her – but in truth no one knew the REAL Marilyn but Marilyn herself.

Marilyn and her early life are a big mystery – as no one can tell for sure what stories of her childhood or very early stardom are true and what not. When you don’t really know much of a person’s early years and childhood, except that they were troubled times – you really will never know the person either.

Marilyn was very intelligent also in that sense that she realized how much she could benefit from tragic stories of her childhood – the more tragic they would be the more she’d get publicity and sympathy.

More likely in Marilyn’s case, she wanted sympathy more than anything – but she also knew how the publicity game works. It can be also that Marilyn simply started believing in some of her stories so that they became reality to her. OR – then again, all of the tragic stories she has told about her childhood and earliest days of modeling and acting careers, might be true too – no one will ever know, except Marilyn.

Some of the biggest mysteries about Marilyn are of course her relationships with JFK and potentially also with Robert Kennedy – no one will ever know what was really going on between these three people.

There are just rumors, more rumors and beliefs, and then some outrageous lies as well – but no one knows the truth.

Marilyn for sure had at least a one night stand with JFK – and I believe she was very proud of it – she had been with the president of the United States, so who wouldn’t be (when the president was so charming). But that’s it – no one really knows what else was going on – and if she had a relationship with Robert too or not.

Other rumors and mysteries about Marilyn were her potential relationships with some men in Hollywood who had connections with the mob – maybe they are true, maybe not. For sure she was at least Sinatra’s some type of friend (but it’s not sure if they had anything else going on than just platonic friendship and good times together) , who in turn were friends with the mob.

From these mysteries also have grown many conspiracy theories about her death; that she was murdered because of some of these relationships or the information she may have had due to these possible relationships.

Her death is the biggest mystery of all.

We will never know what really happened as all the involved persons have already died.

To be honest, I think the only two persons besides Marilyn that really know what happened but never told about it honestly were his psychiatric Ralph Greenson and her house keeper Eunice Murray.

My opinion is that Marilyn’s death was a tragic mistake (just like Whitney’s) – she overdosed by mistake, and most likely she tragically got “help” for this from Ralph Greenson and/ or Eunice Murray.

These persons’ stories regarding what happened that night changed so many times back then, that it’s very likely they were involved in the death in some way (or knew something more about it) and tried to cover it up with all means possible (and got away with it, sadly).

Eunice Murray actually said in her deathbed something that could’ve been interpreted as a some kind of even indirect “confession” on the mistakenly given overdose that she and Ralph gave to Marilyn in form of an enema.

I believe in Donald Spoto’s theory; that Marilyn had taken too many pills during the day and champagne, and in the evening she got an enema from either Greenson or Murray, and that was too much added together with the pills. And then she slipped away. Also the results from the autopsy support this theory quite strongly.

Peter Lawford told that Marilyn had called her then a very troubled and worrying phone call and said to him “say goodbye to Pat, say goodbye to the president and say goodbye to yourself  as you’re a good man”. Maybe this is what she said, maybe not, we will never know it. But if it is so, then she knew that she was slipping away and couldn’t do anything about it anymore.

But she did not commit a suicide – I’m sure of it, and so are most of the writers too that have written her biographies such as Donald Spoto, amongst others. Also Anthony Summers believes it was a tragic mistake, although his biography is little bit questionable in many parts otherwise.

She had too much good things going on in her life in 1962 August to be self-destructive, other than by tragic mistake. Her career was looking brighter than ever, with the new deal that would also profit her more and give her more rights (regardless that she had been fired once already from the filming of Something’s Got To Give), she was decorating her new beautiful home, meeting with her friends and living her life, and, by Donald Spoto, she had also fallen in love with Joe Dimaggio again and was going to remarry him on 8th of August. For sure Joe and Marilyn had a warm relationship by the time Marilyn died. And Joe was obviously devastated. He never married again after Marilyn – so this all tells that he lost the love of his life.

In Marilyn’s funeral there were some of her favorite songs played such as the beautiful “Over The Rainbow” from the Wizard of Oz.

Marilyn went somewhere there over the rainbow….. But she lives forever regardless – she truly is immortal icon of womanly beauty, sensuality and delicate, thoughtful, intelligent artist.


The butterfly… 

And … Some personal thoughts

When Marilyn was once running wildly on the beaches of Malibu in her bathing suit and having fun, and saw a butterfly flying around, she said that in another life, she’d want to be a butterfly and just fly away in the wind.

Maybe she flew away as a butterfly 50 years ago.

This is a beautiful thought – and I would like to add to it that I hope she’s happy wherever she is. : )  I hope she knows how much she’s loved – I think she’d be really delighted about it. Her biggest desire of just being “Wonderful” is something that she truly achieved.

My own and very dear grand mom passed away last September suddenly, so as I haven’t really experienced any dear person’s passing away in my adult years, it deeply affected on me in several levels (I did experience some kinda strange events after my grand mom had passed away, that same day actually). Also in those levels where you think that WHAT really happens – WHERE do they really go – WHERE are they  – CAN they see us – CAN we see them sometimes… I would like to know this. My experience from the day when my grand mom passed away shows that they just transfer themselves to somewhere else –  and are reachable after that. But that’s just my experience obviously.

So as I’ve read several of Marilyn’s biographies again this year – I’ve thought many times that where she really is now – does she know how famous and beloved she really is… Whitney’s sudden passing away also affected deeply – now I think about her in the same way and have become a big fan of hers too (I love her music!).

Marilyn as Theda Bara

The many faces of Marilyn… Here she is Theda Bara in Cleopatra.


One true fan of Marilyn…

.. And the biggest compliment ever on my looks…….!

Marilyn has been my biggest idol since about the age of 9 or 10 – together with Madonna. I truly admire both of these ladies for their extra ordinarily amazing success and intelligence. Marilyn I admire also simply because of her more than amazing appearance and stunning beauty – to me she is the most beautiful woman in the world – I just can’t believe how anyone can be so shining, magnetic and beautiful than she was.

When I was 9 or 10, can’t remember, I got a tip from my cousin to read one really cool book. She was same aged, and kinda wild child – but somehow she had been able to focus and read Anthony Summers’ Goddess Marilyn biography. She said it was a cool book, the best book she had ever read. So naturally I got really curious and decided to read it too. I didn’t even know really who Marilyn was – I only knew she was famous and she was dead – and that maybe she was some kind of pop star or singer. I read the book – and got totally swept away – and became the biggest fan of her than any 9 or 10 year old girl possibly can. And started collecting tons of post cards, posters and images right away. At the same time I became almost as big fan of Madonna as well as I loved her music more than anything – and found her beyond cool woman.

Marilyn was a very, very special and unique woman and I can relate to her in so many ways completely. I mean – who’s not uncertain and feeling vulnerable at times, and, many of us can feel also that we receive unfair judgment from others based on our looks or persona or whatever – from people who don’t even know us. And these are the things I relate to with Marilyn, the most.

The biggest compliment ever I’ve received on my looks – it personally is to me the biggest ever  – was from my geography teacher in high school; he once stopped our class in middle of teaching some European geography and suddenly said to everybody that “Hey did you watch Marilyn’s movie Gentlemen Prefer Blondes yesterday… That was an excellent movie.” (None of us had watched it – excluding myself who obviously HAD watched it).. “Kia over there reminds of Marilyn in that movie so much…” And then something else similar on my looks compared to Marilyn after that. The whole class was first silent for some time, and then like OOOOOH (boys the loudest)  and I was like.. OMG – I was kinda embarrassed about this sudden attention – as I was used to getting mostly yelling for improper behavior more than compliments from teachers.. (In fact that particular teacher also at least once called me to stand in front of the whole  class, amongst others who hadn’t finished their home work…)  Boys teased me after that class and in the following days, by calling me Marilyn whenever they had anything to say to me, and girls too, including all my best friends (Hey Marilyn! they used to call me). That particular geography teacher was old and safe, and a family man – so there was  nothing else in that comment, it was just a general statement from him like any other statement, and he made a lot of statements in our classes, all the time.

It was a larger than life honor to me to be compared to Marilyn, who then was the biggest possible idol to me (and that teacher didn’t know that!)  – and still is.

Marilyn’s writings and intelligent words truly touch me and I can use them in my own life as guidance. Also her multi-talented persona inspires greatly; she was an excellent actress, excellent singer, clever business woman and an intellectual, and a creative and artistic soul. Also her amazing ambition to succeed and make her big dream come true is something that truly inspires, and gives power to follow one’s own plans with determination.


The Life And Opinions Of Maf The Dog And Of His Friend Marilyn Monroe

Some time ago I read this book about Maf who was Marilyn’s close friend during her last 2 years. What an intelligent and thoughtful dog must have he been! He quotes fluently many famous poets and philosophers and seems to have some amazing time travelling and being anywhere with Marilyn from NYC to LA and back. He goes also to Mexico, a country all dogs should visit at least once in their lifetime in my opinion.

Obviously he thinks very deeply about things, as he does all he can to understand Marilyn and her life and challenges.

There was this especially fun part when they were filming “Something’s Got To Give” and there were 3 other dogs there as well and of course Maf. One of the dogs was a spaniel Jeff who was an actor and had a simple, short role with Marilyn; the only thing he needed to do was to greet Marilyn happily. And the spaniel couldn’t act that simple role no matter what; they needed to shot the scene over and over again until Marilyn finally was sure that the dog just does not like her at all. Maf was there watching the filming process and discussed deeply about this astounding situation with the other two dogs. He himself could have acted there perfectly, so he couldn’t understand why that spaniel couldn’t act a simple role of welcoming Marilyn back home although the spaniel claimed very proudly of being an experienced actor…

This was a fun and lovely book for all the Marilyn fans out there, who love dogs! The book is “written” by Maf, who tells the story from his own doggy point of view.


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